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Archive Volume Three: 1991​-​1993

by Strange Talking Animals

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1.
My Life 04:17
My life, to me, seems longer than it should be My life, to me, is like a raging sea My life, to me, is more than I can see My life is like a river that never ends and flows into the sea My life is like a diamond that shines forever, for all to see My life Your life, to me, is like a dream that's come to be Your life, to me, is like the storm above the sea Your life, to me, is more than anything else could be Your life is like a river that never ends and flows into the sea Your life is like a diamond that shines forever, and shines for me Our life, to me, is like crazy life should be Our life, to me, is like the storm and raging sea Our life, to me, is what our life should be Our life is like the ocean, as endless as eternity Our life is like the future, unwritten and as hopeful as can be Our life...
2.
Sitting here within these walls, with time to spend and hope to buy A thought of love, a dream of you I think of you Your memory helps me to live Your touch is why I wait for you I'll suffer my time alone for you With just this thought of you Lying here between these walls, I think of you Pacing here within these hall, I think of you Waiting here until the fall, I think of you Your memory is why I wait Your touch gives me hope to live Trapped within these walls I think of you
3.
Walk Away 01:35
Sometimes I feel like falling away from the ones I know From the ones who say "I love you" And "I need you, won't you stay here with me?" But I can't walk away, and I want you to see That no matter what happens, I will be here with you If you just hold on tight, we will see the storm through If I just walk away, I won't make it today If I just walk away, I won't know what to do If I just walk away, you won't make it today If I just walk away from you Sometimes I feel like running away from the things that I know And the things that I say will only hold me back, and trap And never let go, but I can't walk away from the things that I know No matter the difference and no matter the cost I will be here for you, and we'll never be lost
4.
Within You 03:44
Time, within you I- within you Why am I without you know? Every time I look within you I can disappear without a trace Every time I hide within you You show me everything within you I hide within your eyes There's no way to lie I understand your sighs when you stay And I- without you My time with you I know why I never want to be without you Every time I look within you I can disappear without a trace Every time I hide within you You show me everything within you I hide within your eyes There's no where to hide I understand your sighs when you stay with me
5.
Pretty Lady 05:21
I say hey there pretty lady, what you gonna do? Why do you run away from me when I'm next to you? Maybe you're too cozy or maybe just to shy But don't just stand there looking, I had the nerve to try Just give me one more chance before you start to roam Give me one more dance, my dear, before I take you home Maybe I'm too crazy, or maybe too uptight Give me one more kiss before I say goodnight I may not have a lot to give, but babe, at least I'll try To give you what you're looking for with those big green eyes So call me too emotional, or call me insecure But baby please just call me before you disappear I say hey there pretty lady, what you gonna do? Why do you run away from me when I'm next to you? Maybe you're too cozy or maybe just to shy But don't just stand there looking, I had the nerve to try Just give me one more chance before you start to roam Give me one more dance, my dear, before I take you home Maybe I'm too crazy, or maybe too uptight Give me one more kiss before I say goodnight I may not have a lot to give, but babe, at least I'll try To give you what you're looking for with those big brown eyes So call me too emotional, or call me insecure But baby please just call me before you disappear
6.
A tell-tale soul from a tell-all heart Can't undo my dreams or retell my start A tell-tale mind and an untold dream Can't undo my heart, no matter what may seem That I can't run away no matter how I try And I can't understand that my heart will fly If I can see you cry And I can't run away, no matter what they say And I won't ever hide from the demons held inside I'm the ever watchful eye with my head held in the sky And I won't run away And I won't make you stay And I can't change your mind And you can't run away A broken dream from a broken heart Can drown my soul or tear it apart An open mind, a forgotten dream Can drown my hope in a sordid stream And I can't run away no matter how I try And I can't understand why my heart will fly If I can see you cry
7.
The Sea 03:19
I look out upon the ocean, how black it is this night The coldest black I've ever seen, without one spark of light I ask it then to take me beneath its bitter depths To hold me there forever in a place I can forget How it spins itself a web upon my fragile heart How it scorns with indifference as I'm torn apart I'm standing here so close With one hand I could touch With one down sweeping motion With one all powerful clutch I could drive my life into this sea, this sea so blind and cold My pain would be a memory My life, a story told Still I, the sea are separate, its black pure perfect dark And my heart is stained now- the Sea, it has no heart So I stand still watching, understanding on my face The Sea, it will not take me for the past has left it's trace Look out upon the Ocean Its blackness still in eyes I feel my wounds so strongly I accept my own demise So the Sea bids me adieu with one thundering crash "You are not the first," it whispers, "And certainly not the last."
8.
Do you think that I am a fool for being how I am? For running through the pouring rain? For hiding from the Sun's burning light? For whispering the truth into the sweet and gentle night? Do you think I can't see your soul buried in the sand? I can see it suffering coldly without the Sun to blow away its sin Agonizing from the pain and sadness that decays from within You look at me as if I cut your throat Eyes of fear and hate for the secret that you lost to my sight But it's no fault of mine, I can see your past in every move you make For you make your old pain your only plight I run through the rain as it rushes down upon my face Freeing me from yesterday's tears I hide from the Sun- it reminds me that tomorrow is here And during the night, when all time seems to stop, magic fills the air Truth flows easily and mystically into all the aching ones' ears Do you think that I am a fool for being how I am? I have my soul glowing in the palm of my hand You look at me as if I cut your throat Eyes of fear and hate for the secret that you lost to my sight But it's no fault of mine, I can see your past in every move you make For you make your old pain your only plight
9.
Sometimes when I'm awake, I hear a little voice in my head Sometimes when I break, that little voice says I'm dead (Maybe I should sleep the day away) Sometimes when I look around I see the sky falling Sometimes when I'm down, that little voice comes calling (Maybe I should sleep the day away) If I close my eyes, let the world fade away If I said goodbye to you what would you say? Bur don't worry, my dear, about these words I say I'm awake, right here, and I'm with you today Sometimes when I sleep, my dream-world fades to black Sometimes when I weep, my tears won't bring you back (Maybe I should be with you) Sometimes when I run, I seem to go nowhere A dream of you to come, Your face is everywhere (Maybe I should spend the day with you) If I close my eyes, let the world fade away If I said goodbye to you what would you say? Bur don't worry, my dear, about these words I say I'm awake, right here, and I'm with you today
10.
Why? 02:28
Why do I drown my fears? Why do I hide my tears? What can I do to help me get though this time? This pain? Why do I run away? Why do I act this way? Why can't I fly? Just one more try to get through to you Why did I forsake you? What did I try to do? What was my sin? What the hell am I in? Without you, I'm through How can I make my heart shine? How can I make you mine? I'l try to get through, my true-heart to you I'll stay here with you tonight
11.
Something in my mind says I have to let you know And something in my heart says not to let you go Maybe I'm the one who has to hold your hand And maybe I'm the one who can only understand That the pain you feel is something inside you need to let go And that the dreams behind the child are the dreams that we both hold Something in your eyes say that I'm the one And something in your smile say all the pain is done But maybe I'm the one who needs to hold you tight And maybe I'm the one who fell in love tonight And the pain you feel is something inside you need to let go And the dreams we dream together are the bonds that won't let go And something in my mind says I have to let you know That something we both share will never let us go Something we both share will never let us go
12.
There's been a murder, and I see you look away You're just a sinner, and you don't care why You're always coming home late, and you never stay You think it's all alright, you think it's all okay I remember when you needed me I remember when you loved me You loved me Love me again You don't know what you're putting me through Your love is tearing me apart, so why do you? Be a murderer and look away You're just a sinner and you don't even care I remember when you needed me I remember when you loved me You loved me Every day and night Love me again
13.
Of You-Of Me 03:45
Watching you run away from something I said or did It's ok to be afraid when you don't understand me Sitting alone in the night, trying to find a word or two Is there something I can say to you today? When I reach out to touch you I find you're never there Did I push you away from me? Do you even care for you, or me? I came to say goodbye, although you'll never know Watching you lie there, peacefully, inside If you should think of me- a face you never knew Is it just a dream? Or is it me for you? Here among the shadows I find a new belief Is it something inside of you to need this dream of me?
14.
Man in the moon, what do you see? Do you see a fool when you look at me? What can we do to set ourselves free from the squanders of hell? Does it matter who dies if it's done in your eyes? So cold and so empty, so vacant inside Man in the moon, what hope can you give? So barren and empty, so pointless to live Man in the moon, what hope can you give from the squanders of hell? Does it matter who lies if it's done in your eyes? No family, no ties, no feelings to hide Man in the moon, what do you see? What do you think of our latest atrocities? What can we do to set ourselves free from the squanders of hell? Does it matter who cries if no one else tries To make the change worth while?
15.
Warm Inside 01:57
It's cold outside, and I'm so tired here It's cold outside, but nothing I can fear will ever bring you near And make it warm inside It's cold outside, and I'm alone tonight It's cold outside, but no matter how we fight, it never seems quite right To make it warm inside Come inside and warm my soul Make my dreams of falling snow Just melt away the ice and keep me warm at night Make it warm inside It's cold outside, and so dark inside It's so cold outside, and no matter where I hide I can't keep this spark alive To make it warm inside
16.
The Demon 03:29
I hear the hum of the working day begin As I try my best to rest and settle in But a demon in my head makes my eyes only see red As I'm lying in your bed Is there something I can be for you? As we settle down, the night brings morning dew But the demon-rage inside: the lust, the flesh, the pride Can feel you by my side Is nothing I tough sacred? Is nothing I do alright? No matter how I feel, my love just seems surreal Because you are not my wife I hear the hum of the furnace kicking in I hope tonight the rest will settle in But I know it's just no use- the demon wants abuse And how can I refuse? I know the demon lives inside of you In me, in you- in most of us, it's true But the lust I feel for you is the lust inside you too Because the demon is never through Is nothing we touch sacred? Is there nothing we do that's alright? No matter how we feel, our love is just surreal Until we finish our lives Until we finish this life
17.
Maybe I'm crazy to do the things I do And maybe I'll die if I do them all to you But don't you know it's true? All the things I do, I do them all for you Maybe I'm insane when I try to call your name Maybe I'll explode when I try to play this game But girl, you know I do- I play this game for you In everything I do What can I do to make you play with me? And what can I say to make you stay with me? Hey, what's a guy to do? Maybe I'm just lost when I'm standing next to you Maybe I'll be found before the night is through But am I just a fool, when I try too hard for you? And you don't love me Maybe I'm insane 'cause I never called your name Maybe I'm insane 'cause I never played the game But what's a guy to do when he's in love with you And dreaming is all he'll do?
18.
Stand by the water, look inside Give me a moment to rest my mind Cold drops of water touch my face It seems as though the past could be erased Then I see you standing there looking so old I feel myself drifting back to the stories you told "So it was you," I say With a smile on my face And you whisper "Yes" Into the water Walk into the water, feel its cold and icy touch Look into my eyes, if you dare I will walk Step into the water, feel its life, its death, its touch Look into my heart, if you dare I will dare All there is around us is water The land is gone Suddenly we age a million years And I've known you all along Together we are a love that cannot die Behind your fresh young face, your ancient soul lies "So it was you," I cry With tears in my eyes And you sing "Yes" Into the water
19.
I looked around to see the world To see my generation crash and burn The winds of change, they howled and whirled But my generation never learned The promise kept of a changing world The promise broke in a little white line The walls of change will crash and burn All to insure no peace in our time Just because I ride the wings of chance Doesn't bring the winds of change And doesn't it bring the Deadman's Dance To a world that's gone insane I looked around to see this land Of hopes and dreams and lying men Of change and progress and dirty hands And peace and love become fear and hate The promise kept of a changing world The promise broke, the world the same Th walls of change will crash and burn And still there's no peace in our time
20.
Yesterday's gone and all I do is remember you Tomorrow's a game I have to play- memories of you Yesterday's game, a memory I play inside me Something of you, a distant part of a fading dream Nothing's the same, an empty shell that I came to be Without you, All I have are memories of you Empty rooms are all I share, specters of you Vacant looks are all I give without you Yesterday's gone and all I do is remember you Tomorrow's a game, played out today- memories of you
21.
I Stand Here 02:54
I stand here, waiting for the day to come Waiting to claim something, anything, that isn't my birthright Wanting to embrace a better goal, or a safer place to live, or to die I stand here fighting a war inside myself, and around me Desperately trying to change, and yet, not to change I stand here, dying for a chance to live With you, with me, with some sense of purpose I stand here, bleeding heart on wounded knee And I never stop to think about how silly I really am I stand here trying to make a change, a stand, a life, A dream come true I stand here for you and for me I stand here and think At least I haven't fallen yet

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Archival Project Volume Three! The Glorious years of 1991, 1992, and 1993! For Benjamin and Melissa and the wonderful people I've written and record with over the years! Thank you, All!

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released May 7, 2021

Recorded at the Uranium Playpen, in the Dungeons! All songs by Brad James Beske (*except where noted).

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Strange Talking Animals Springfield Township, New Jersey

Born in raised in Madison, WI. Transplanted to Brooklyn, Jamaica, and finally Springfield. Versed in chamber pop and rock, psychedelic and prog, and expanding musical horizons to experience electronic and ambient musics and experiment with modular and chaotic synthesis.Overfed with science fiction and fantasy and actual science. And stay-at-home dadness. ... more

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